KELLY Clarkson has opened up about her heartbreak during her divorce from her ex Brandon Blackstock.The singer appeared on Wednesday’s episode of the Conan O’Brien Needs a Friend podcast to promote the release of her upcoming album, Chemistry.
Since Kelly’s new songs were heavily influenced by her difficult breakup with her husband, it didn’t take long before she reflected on the split.At one point in the interview, the American Idol alum revealed that she felt “alone” and “isolated” while dealing with the divorce.
“Divorce, in general, is hard. Separation, grief, loss, all of that is hard. I think the worst part is when you feel alone,” Kelly told host Conan O’Brien in front of a live audience.The mom of two then explained that she struggled to confide in those close to her as they didn’t share the same experiences.
“When you’re going through something so horrendous and so publicly, there’s no way to describe that…I think when you’re that isolated…that’s the worst to not feel like you can connect to another being and not heal in that sense,” she added.Kelly later admitted that her mental health took a significant hit while balancing her personal troubles and work responsibilities during the Covid-19 pandemic.
“I would be like truth, completely balling right before we would be shooting and be like, ‘how do I fix this?’…It’s hard to keep smiling,” the talk show host confessed, noting that she even canceled a work obligation while battling a low-point.
“There was one time – I never cancel, I’m not that person – and I was like, I can’t actually fix this. I looked like, oh God, put her in a jacket. It was real bad. I was really sad, so we had to cancel one day,” the TV star said.
ROCKY RELATIONSHIP
Kelly shared more about her and Brandon’s relationship last week on the podcast We Can Do Hard Things with Glennon Doyle.The Because of You singer revealed that things have been rocky between the pair while navigating co-parenting their two children: River Rose, eight, and Remington, seven.”If there’s always this tug-of-war happening, like, ‘Oh my god, I love you, but god, I hate you, you are just horrible.’ That’s not healthy,” The Voice coach stated.
“That’s just emotionally going 9-0…but you finally get away from that, and you realize how ‘OK, this actually feels better.'” Kelly furthered on the podcast: “Any kind of dependency [in a relationship], I feel like takes away from what the core loving relationship should be. No, I don’t need you for any of that. I’m choosing you.
“I could freely be giving it to anyone, and I’m freely giving it to you and only you. I think that’s so beautiful…[and some] people don’t agree.”
NASTY DIVORCEThey eventually settled their divorce in March 2022, and the Grammy Award-winner was ordered to pay her ex over $1.3million, along with $45,601 per month in child support.Kelly is now vying for a fresh start and recently announced she’s moving her popular daytime talk show, The Kelly Clarkson Show, from Los Angeles to New York City.
After seven years of marriage, Kelly, 41, filed for divorce from Brandon, 46, in June 2020, citing irreconcilable differences.However, their split was far from amicable as it followed with a nasty court battle over their marital assets.